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so,  i am probably moving to new bedford and i'm kinda excited about that- despite (or maybe beacuse of) what the new bedford facebook group has to say about it:

N - New Bedford MA
E- Extremely Dangerous
W- Whites are Minorites

B- Bowling is the only thing to do
E- Everyone Drinks
D- Drugs
F- Frequent Gang Fights
O- On the Coast
R- Retards make up half of our City
D- Dirty

i’m having an excellent summer, i’m a busy busy bee (july in review)

MON 7/7 and TUES 7/8: andre had swimming lessons at crystal lake which i already said but i didn’t already say how wonderful crystal lake is- its really wonderful (it’s a public swimming area in newton)

WED 7/9: went to s&b for the first time in a while- it was just me and emily and the sarahs i think- and iris showed up later and gave us blueberry pie- a nice evening (i’m still working on the wedding blanket squares, haven’t been knitting much this summer)

THURS 7/10: went to kickball open practice with a bunch of plantains- the other kickball people were really nice and welcomed us into the practice- then went to the penalty box with d&m for the kickball league night drinking contest and had a zombie shot- met more nice people but learned that our team might have a bad reputation

FRI 7/11: had restaurant week lunch at blue grotto with the sarahs- food was good, not great- went up to new hampshire to my uncle’s house that evening b/c my aunt from florida is visiting with her grandchildren (my cousin’s kids) who i never see- swam in my uncle’s pool

SAT 7/12: in new hampshire- it took forever to leave my uncle’s house in hollis for his house on lake winnipesaukee but it was nice to be with family (nana and grandpa didn’t come b/c grandpa still isn’t talking to my aunt)- stopped at a local burger place and farm stand and had yummy snacks- went for a boat ride and tubing (laughing so much feels so good)- the lake is beautiful, I’d rather have a lake house than a beach house- chandler and reese are wicked cute- decided it would be a bad idea for me to jump off the big rock- played apples to apples and my aunt took it way too seriously and was a little mean to me- hung out with my stoner cousin- he’s really cool, but now he texts me all the time

SUN 7/13: came back from lake- crafted with d (needed to kick-start the crafting for the craft table at the market- it worked)- didn’t go to the gano street dog park cleanup like i should have- had dinner with katy and her parents and her friend at local 121- my first time, it was really good

MON 7/14: brought huck to the vet so they could check on his eyes (they are a little red, no big deal)- they love him, he’s such a good boy- took andre to swim lessons at crystal lake- i didn’t swim

TUES 7/15: andre drop-off and pick-up and swimming lessons (i swam this time)- went to harvard square in between- briefly saw ryan and did some sort-of necessary shopping and some very unnecessary shopping

WED 7/16: andre drop-off- dinner with mom and al and dawn at gracie’s- very very good- it was not a celebration dinner (meaning i had to pay for myself) b/c i still have not heard about the job!!!

THURS 7/17: meeting with paul (my financial advisor)- he always makes it (saving, my financial future) seem so easy- got some good advice about budgeting which will be very useful in the months to come (as i hopefully very soon will have a job and get an apartment)- he made me feel almost excited about saving- had juniper- saw b-hive at the RISD museum (I good setting for them, bright yellow hair against blue walls)- the new gallery is great, there’s some neat stuff in the new exhibit (including a kiki smith piece!), free beer, painted postcards in the garden- then to the penalty box, but it wasn’t kickball night (and you wouldn’t want to hang out there when it’s not kickball night), so we (me, sarah, katie) went to the  wild colonial instead

FRI 7/18: crafted all day (cards to sell at the WBNA market)- i like them mostly, but sometimes the imperfections bother me, hopefully people will find them charming- then saw “the dark knight” in randolph (i love this theater- it has a nathan’s!) with ry and didi and jeff- it was awesome- saw a “twilight” preview but it didn’t excite me as much as i hoped it would (not as good as the images in my head- it made me want to go home immediately and read, it’s like missing friends (wow, i’m a geek)) and a preview for “watchmen” which really excited me- when i got home there were a few new degrassi episodes on my itunes to watch so i watched them in bed

SAT 7/19: brunch at the modern diner with a big group of friends- had the lemon poppyseed pancakes with mascarpone and strawberry sauce, but i should’ve had the lobster benedict (emily did)- went to the indie arts fest, bought some stuff, had some beer, saw a facial hair contest- had tommy’s pizza- went to a party at an old man’s apartment that had a balcony overlooking water fire- celebrated xmas in july with drag queens

SUN 7/20 beach day- goosewing- worried it would rain, but just grey and misty- strong breeze, good temp- perfect- water divine- excellent snacks, excellent friends- swam, ate, napped, walked- drive through tiverton and little compton (love it)- fried clams at flo’s (decided i like whole clams better than clam strips- more flavor)- made jewelry until 2am

MON 7/21 and TUES 7/22: with andre, nothing too exciting to report- bought a new sleeping bag and pad (my old ones are like 15 years old)- more crafting

WED 7/22: andre in the morning- thunderstorms sent lucky under the bed, huck doesn’t care- origins facial party and dinner with some of my favorite ladies- i discovered i really need to exfoliate, i think this will change my life- dinner at fire&ice, what a funny place, probably not good for an overeater like me

TODAY: it is grey and rainy- really rainy at times, more thunderstorms- it’s fine with me, but it means no selling crafts at the WBNA farmer’s market and i was really looking forward to that- but it’s good b/c i have made a lot of stuff and now i will have time to make more (i want to make some beasties) and we will sell stuff in september- i’ve always wanted to sell stuff, i’m glad i had this opportunity to make me sit down and craft my ass off- there are several things i could do tonight, but will i do them? this weather makes me want to stay in and i really need to clean my room

recently i’ve been getting a lot of requests on flickr for use of my photos on various websites- so far, the coolest is this– it was actually a request to include one of my photos in the book they are making based on the website- i don’t know which photo yet, but cool! and i get a free copy of the book!

i got myself into trouble with tom last week for unintentionally slamming his girlfriend (it had to do with her being from connecticut and how that made sense to me b/c she’s so plain-jane)- i didn’t mean to be snide, but i should’ve bite my tongue- he got pissed, which in a way is unfair b/c he comments on her lack of style all the time, but i was a big girl and i called him the next day to apologize and didn’t even temper it with a “but…” (even when he was like “just don’t do it again”)- it felt good to do the right thing, but it made me realize how hard it is to really apologize without placing conditions on the apology- it’s hard b/c you have to admit you did something wrong and you can’t soften it by passing some of the blame off on someone else- it makes you feel a little bad about yourself, a reminder that you don’t always do the right thing- i thought of my mom and how she never admits she’s wrong, never really apologizes, and i think this is why, i think she can’t handle the thought that she’s not always nice, or right, or unselfish

i watched the movie “soapdish” ondemand and it made me so happy- it was one of my favorites back in the day and it was nice to find i still like it, still respond to it in pretty much the same way- that movie is so 80s

huck has started barking at other dogs when on the leash- he never used to do this and i’m annoyed he’s started doing it- it’s embarrassing b/c it makes him seem so badly behaved- the other day he barked at two dogs- one dog owner laughed it off and said “he’s such a teenager, huh?” like a normal friendly person- the other dog owner said “oh, that’s not good, you have to correct that” like a bitchy snotty know-it-all- i had explained to her that he was young and this was a new habit and that i was working on it (and it’s not like his behavior is dangerous- he barks and then he wags his tail and kisses the other dog), there was no need for her to talk to me like like it was her duty to teach me a lesson- i just found it interesting, these two different ways of interacting with a stranger- one that develops good neighborly feelings and one that develops resentment

mike called last week- he’s leaving the country soon and wants to visit with me before he goes- it’s nice that he called, that he wants to see me- i’m going to visit him in nyc next week- he’s moving to some island in the south pacific because his girlfriend is a lawyer and got a job there- last time i talked to him (easter) he was dating this girl, but i had no idea it was serious- moving to a little island in the south pacific, that’s pretty serious- the move itself is not as serious for mike as for most people as he loves to live in remote little places, but the fact that he’s going there for this girl, this is huge for mike, the guy who when we dated was literally terrified of making a commitment (so unhappy with himself, so sure that he would let me down, too sensitive to handle the responsibility for someone else’s happiness)- it hit me hard- of course, it’s not that i want to date him now (i’ve said before that our lifestyles really don’t mesh), it’s not that i’m still in love with him (though he will always occupy a big piece of my heart), it’s not that i don’t realize that of course time changes things and people grow and change and get over whatever was holding them back when they were younger, it’s not that i don’t recognize the possibility that if i were happily in love with someone else this might not bother me at all- but, still, it’s hard not to think “but you wouldn’t have moved to a remote island in the south pacific with me…”- the heartache only lasted about a day though, i think i’m over it now- it will be so nice to see him and to visit new york

andre was talking about how much he likes this girl eleanor in his class- he said, “i like her so much, sometimes my eyes twitch when i see her”- also, one night he was bargaining before bed time (not to stay up later, but on the fine point of whether he would brush his teeth before books or after)- he offered me his allowance- i said, “no thank you”- he said, “there’s a monster under your bed!”

somehow i totally missed that the new season of project runway was starting (i haven’t been watching much teevee lately other than ondemand and dvred teevee- i feel that facebook should’ve told me it was starting)- but i now have deb’s teevee set to record it, so all’s well- i watched the first episode- i’m not super excited about any of the designers yet either design wise or personality wise-
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Mash Game: Predict Your Future at eSPIN-the-Bottle

Behold... My Future
  I will marry John Waters.  
  After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Jersey City, NJ in our fabulous Apartment.  
  We will have 2000 kid(s) together.  
  Our family will zoom around in a hot pink dinosaur.
  I will spend my days as a adult baby wrangler, and live happily ever after.  
whats your future

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i'm back! i had an amazing trip- i love amsterdam, i ate a lot of cheese and drank a lot of beer (i didn't get stoned b/c there was no one to get stoned with, but it's ok), i rode a bike, i wore an orange shirt, i think the dutch people are the nicest people in the world, i made many great new friends, it was so good to spend time with laura,  the wedding was beautiful...

details to come but for now i need to decompress after over 15 hours of travelling yesterday and unpack and do laundry and snuggle my dogs and take pictures of my purchases and pick up the mess huck left after his big adventure (the dog walker forgot to lock his crate one day and he was running around the house for six hours with no one home! my parents came home to yarn strewn all over the upstairs and chewed up kewpie dolls and jewelry (luckliy nothing i am too upset about, no shoes thank god)! he ate a potato and a peach and a whole bag of dog food, the little butt! i was so upset to hear about this, i thought my mom was joking at first when she emailed me- i guess we know for sure now he can't be trusted)

why is it such a sucky day today? it's hard to motivate (well, except for the snuggling, that i'm already taking care of)

can't wait to see everyone! i love to travel, but i think i like coming home even more

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my birthday weekend was HOT- in the paris hilton way and especially in the temperature way- i really don't like the heat and it seems huck doesn't handle it that well (i'm still getting used to all the panting, it makes me nervous), so we stayed in the house as much as possible which was good b/c i got my wedding crafts done (i leave for amsterdam in five days!!!)- but there was also lots of birthday fun to be had

on saturday i checked out the first day of kickball- urban plantains didn't play (thank god- i wouldn't have wanted to play in that heat), but i wanted to see some kickball in action- danielle and martin and i saw like two games- i'm a little nervous b/c i still don't think i'll know exactly what to do, but it's all in good fun, so it'll be fine i'm sure- i brought huck with me and he made friends with all the kids in the park (and almost got stolen by one i think)

then it was back to the house to get ready for the party- i really enjoy hostessing and had fun putting up balloons and streamers and setting everything up- the turnout was good (thanks to everyone who came and brought treats!) and my friends give awesome presents- and i learned how to use the grill and we had a fire in the chimenea and had s'mores and there was ice cream cake and birthday song singing and it was a really good time- and i didn't even get too lonely at the end of the night after everyone had gone and i thought how it would be nice to have a special someone to sit by the dying fire with- just a little lonely

sunday it continued to be unacceptably hot, so we had a lazy day- the dogs have basically just been lying on the floor for the past few days- huck got up a little to bark at some balloons and eat ice, but it's too hot to take them to the park- it was kinda nice though b/c huck was staying out of trouble and i got a lot done- we just hung out in the living room with the fans and i read my new vice photo book (it makes me really miss reading vice regularly- it seems silly to subscribe to it b/c in nyc you can get it for free on every corner- i should try to remember to check the website more often) and crafted- i had ice cream cake and pickles for lunch and later a pre-dinner cheese fest and then mom made five cheese penne and chocolate falling cakes and i got more presents and we went for an evening walk (when it was almost cool enough for the dogs) and  i talked to friends and family and it was all around a very nice birthday

so now i am 29- i'm hoping this year will be full of big positive changes for me- i think it will- i feel pretty good

bad news, good news

the bad news is, i won't know before my trip if i got the cranberry job or not

the good news is, i have an second interview for the cranberry job- this one is with the director of the department that oversees the cranberry station- the interview is not until july 1st- i wish this could happen faster, but at least i have a good feeling about it

keep your fingers crossed!

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huck is currently going to town on the remnants of a big stuffed monkey and i'm happy that he is so entertained, but i wish he would just lie down and go to sleep b/c it's exhausting to have to keep checking to make sure he hasn't moved on to chewing on the rug instead (it's 11pm, he's usually asleep by 8 or 9- this is what i get for not taking him to the dog park today)

i'm going to eat some mint chocolate chip ice cream now

notes from recent (and not so recent) weeks

i write notes everywhere- in notebooks, on little scraps of paper, in word documents, in desktop stickies (i think stickies is one of the best things about having a mac)- i mean to post about them in a timely manner, but i rarely do- so, they build up- and then i make big random posts like this (and the next couple to come- i am trying to clean off my desktop!)- which if you read my lj regularly you should be used to by now

after my interview at the cranberry station (i should be hearing from them soon! i still really want the job! especially since i’ve barely applied to anything else since!), i was so excited, i wanted to talk to someone- tom is usually the first person i call in situations like this, but he didn’t answer his phone- the next “person” i wanted to call was huck- yep, i wanted to call my dog and tell him about my good interview- that’s pretty bad- but he's my little life partner (in a totally nonsexual way of course)

i had my clothing “swap”- i did actually end up with a cute top and a cute bathing suit, but i gave away bags and bags of stuff to many people which was my goal- it felt really good to get rid of stuff- i especially enjoyed giving all the stuffed animals and the like to aurora and forest, the neighborhood kids that are always wandering around our yard- when it was all over, i took what was left (an even larger load than what i gave away) to savers- i think i love getting rid of old stuff almost as much as i love acquiring new stuff- thanks to everyone who came and took my stuff!

may 17th was my dad’s birthday so, like every year, we provided the flowers for the chancel at the newton UU church that weekend- the service was nice- the sermon was about julian of norwich who had visions and had herself walled into a church and was all about love- she saw god as loving and compassionate which was a big deal in her day (when everyone just saw god as scary)- for me this touched home b/c  of the idea that love endures and is forever- and i do feel that way about my dad's love- and julian's words, "all will be well, and all will be well, and all manner of things will be well" are good words to live by i think- after church, we went to visit dad’s spot in the cemetery and andre played by the waters edge and whacked dandelions with a stick- and then we went to crystal lake and andre tried out his new fishing pole- he didn't catch any fish, but after about five minutes he was casting like a pro (and the next weekend he did catch a fish and it's like all he talks about now)- it was a lovely day

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my mom recently told me that when i was a kid, i used to clean off and save the fancy plates on which cake was served at the birthday parties i went to- this makes so much sense in terms of my desire to acquire pretty things- it's always been with me- also, i was recently rereading some old journals and there are several in which i describe trips to the mall and the things i got- with as much passion as i described crushes i had on boys- i have always liked things- things are precious to me

last weekend danielle and i went to see cyndi lauper and the b-52's and it was so much fun- the b-52's were great, but danielle is right, b-hive is just as good (we had seen them the night before at the blackstone)- i think the thing is, when you see b-hive, it's more intimate- it was hard to really connect with the b-52's at the pavilion- plus, they played a bunch of new songs and i don't think i'm really into there new stuff that much- but they were great- BUT, i am serious when i say seeing cyndi was a spiritual experience- it was totally amazing to be in her presence and i was like a little girl, jumping up and down- she looked and sounded great and is such a performer (i guess she's notoriously difficult to work with which was apparent at the show, but i can't fault her for that b/c she is a goddess to me)- regina spektor also preformed and she's great, but it was not a good environment for her music- and carson kressley was the mc and he told a lot of bad gay joes which were sometimes funny- and rosie o'donnell did a little monologue which was kinda depressing and a little touching and sometimes funny- she's ok, i guess- she likes to craft, so that's cool- and i got to hang out with my hairdresser who i think is wicked cool- we had pancakes together

the weekend before last i rode on a pontoon boat down the providence canal during waterfire, something i think everyone should do at least once- and i went to the avery and mirabar for the first time and both are great in their own way- i've been hanging out with danielle alot which has been a pleasure (i'm so glad you like hanging out with me, danielle!)- also that weekend i saw speedracer in 3D with jake- that is the weirdest movie ever, so weird i can't even say if it was good or not

there has been kickball practice and purchasing things for kickball outfits and meeting crazy kickball team members and getting a kickball pint glass- i'm really excited about kickball

huck graduated from training class a couple weeks ago- i think he ended up being one of the best pups in the class- i'm so glad i did the class, i think it helped a lot, but now i need to keep it up b/c he's still a little trouble-maker sometimes- by the way, in case you haven't seen them (i like to show them off), huck has many tricks- in addition to sit and down and wait and other basics, he can give me a high five (my favorite), roll over, crawl, and go over and under a bar on command- also, the sleeping in my bed thing is going better than i thought- he will still sleep in his crate without crying if i want him too and he doesn't get out of bed until i wake up- and i saw that crazy dog park lady that yelled at me again- and huck went crazy with her dog again- she handled it much better this time, she must be more comfortable with her dog now, but my heart was beating like crazy and i felt sick to my stomach the whole time (i would've liked to have been calm, cool, and collected)- i have found a new dog park in newton (there are six that i go to regularly now, three in providence, three in newton) that is my most favorite dog park- i love all the people and all the dogs- things are so relaxed there, no one gets upset with other people's dogs- and the people welcomed me right away

i watched season two of the tudors and it's so good

two of my photos from my trip to portland (the smallest park photo and the ramona sculpture photo) were chosen through flickr for guide books- that's cool

i talked to my bff dan the other night- we have been so out of touch and this has been really bothering me lately- it was good to reconnect and catch up- he is doing really well and i am so happy for him (and jealous that he and kristina get to live together- if i don't get this cranberry job and if i didn't have huck, i think i would just move to san francisco and stay with them until i found a job there)- dan told me i am textbook depressed and that i won't get a job until i fix that- there's some sense to that, but it freaks me out- me going to a therapist is not going to happen any time soon- he also gave me all this tips about trying to break into different fields of work, people i should talk to, things i could do- he says there are so many things he could see me doing, i just have to find creative ways to show other people that- all this freaks me out to- it's so overwhelming to think of completely switching gears when i don't even know what i want- it seems like it should be easy, why do I find it so hard?

a long time ago i saw a shopping addict on intervention- she had $113,000 debt and she stole her mother's identity and was facing 15 years in prison- and she was still shopping- will i ever get that bad? i don't think so, but i'm not really getting any better (this woman was also addicted to plastic surgery which i thankfully am not)

i got a bikini wax today- the reason i'm reporting this is to say how funny the woman who waxes me is- we were talking about internet dating (i think i've said before how weird it is to be chatting with someone while lying spread-eagle in a chair getting your pubic hair ripped out and how i preferred the days of going to nyc nail salons where the people waxing me didn't speak english- and also a nail salon wax only costs a fraction of what i pay this lady) and she said "oh, you have to be careful with that..." and went on to tell me about this friend of hers that got sucked into this african scam "ring" through eharmony- like she bought some guy in africa a wii and never got her money back- weird (but who would buy some guy they met on eharmony a wii anyway?)- and then she kept saying how i'm getting a bikini wax so it's a fresh start and things are going to turn around for me (if it were that easy, i would've gotten waxed months ago, but it's a nice thought) and she told me i check out oprah's "secrets"

and also- my ass bone still hurts

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i know this is sort of ridiculous b/c it's late for a sunday night, but i kinda wanna go see indiana jones and iron man at the drive-in on sunday- indie starts at 8:45pm, iron man at 11pm- late, i know, but anyone interested?

my birthday

is june 8th and i would like to have a party

i was thinking of having a bowling party, but on second thought, i think something more low-key sounds nice

so, come to my house on june 7th at 7pm for a birthday BBQ

i will supply the burgers and hot dogs (let me know what meatless option you like best if you don't eat meat) and soda and birthday cake

please bring a side dish or snacky thing and your choice of alcohol (i'll probably buy a case of something cheap, but bring stuff if you want more than cheap beer)

we can roast marshmallows in the chiminea and play games if we want and hang out and have fun!

let me know if you plan on coming and bringing people so i get enough food!